Friday, May 25, 2012

Where I'm going

(SYLC 20)

This week it's time to check as to how I'm progressing with my goals. Back in week six of the SYLC I set out the following goal for myself:
"My broad goal for this year is to explore my own agenda and live to it. I want to avoid being distracted by the noise. I want to tune into myself, recognise when I experience flow and when I feel a fire of passion burning inside like I did at the moment I began this whole journey eight years ago."
My first thought was that I hadn't progressed, but actually that's not true at all.

I've definitely been better at not being distracted by the noise around me - at work especially. It's helping me be more focused during the day. I've also pulled back from getting caught up in other people's issues. I love to help people, it's a big part of who I am. But I also know that people need to be ready for that help, that I cannot solely carry their burdens for them.

I have definitely tuned into myself. I now listen to my body, which tells me instantly when I've eaten the wrong thing or partied just a bit too hard, that it's time to slow down. As I increase the amount of exercise I do by riding to work or taking the advanced pilates class, I feel my body get stronger. But I also dont beat myself up if I don't make the Sunday morning class.

As to what the next leap in my professional journey will be, I'm actually feel I'm making the first steps. I've engaged with a wonderful psychologist whom with I'm exploring what makes my heart sing. The approach is very creative, I'm loving it and view it as an investment in myself.

Like Debra, I have a real interest in helping people make the most of their lives. I'd go as far as saying it's a passion and am determined to explore this as a possible career. I don't know what shape that takes yet. I know it will be multimodal, that it will integrate all the skills I have developed through my life. I'm reading alot and and talking to some very talented people about what this might look like. I'm daring to dream it will happen.

Last night I came across this piece by Ben Okri that spoke perfectly as to where I am in my life. It's a journey that I feel like I'm just at the beginning of. So exciting.

To an English Friend in Africa

Be grateful for freedom
To see other dreams.
Bless your loneliness as much as you drank
Of your former companionships.
All that you are experiencing now
Will become moods of future joys
So bless it all.

Do not think your ways superior
To another's
Do not venture to judge
But see things with fresh and open eyes
Do not condemn
But praise what you can
And when you can't be silent.

Time is now a gift for you
A gift of freedom
To think and remember and understand
The ever perplexing past
And to re-create yourself anew
In order to transform time.

Live while you are alive.
Learn the ways of silence and wisdom
Learn to act, learn a new speech
Learn to be what you are in the seed of your spirit
Learn to free yourself from all things that have moulded you
And which limit your secret and undiscovered road.

Remember that all things which happen
To you are raw materials
Endlessly fertile

Endlessly yielding of thoughts that could change
Your life and go on doing for ever.

Never forget to pray and be thankful
For all the things good or bad on the rich road;
For everything is changeable
So long as you live while you are alive.

Fear not, but be full of light and love;
Fear not but be alert and receptive;
Fear not but act decisively when you should;
Fear not, but know when to stop;
Fear not for you are loved by me;
Fear not, for death is not the real terror,
But life -magically - is.

Be joyful in your silence
Be strong in your patience
Do not try to wrestle with the universe
But be sometimes like water or air
Sometimes like fire

Live slowly, think slowly, for time is a mystery.
Never forget that love
Requires that you be
The greatest person you are capable of being,
Self-generating and strong and gentle-
Your own hero and star.

Love demands the best in us
To always and in time overcome the worst
And lowest in our souls.
Love the world wisely.

It is love alone that is the greatest weapon
And the deepest and hardest secret.

So fear not, my friend.
The darkness is gentler than you think.
Be grateful for the manifold

And the many ways of unnumbered peoples.

Be grateful for life as you live it.
And may a wonderful light
Always guide you on the unfolding road.


  1. Such a positive post. I'm so happy to read that you have a new direction to look forward to. I love helping people too and not taking on other people's burdens is something that I have learned this year and it is really helping me. I have times that I now call "going in to self preservation mode". That is when things are bad and I have to just shut down and even sometimes ignore other people. Their problems aren't the most important thing in MY life.

    Good luck with the rest of your jouney, can't wait to read about it
    Jo xo

    1. Thanks for your comment Jo. 'Preservation mode' is so important, but it does take practice!

  2. Love that you came round to see how much you have progressed - awesome!

    Deb @ home life simplified

  3. It's thanks to you and this challenge Deb! It's been fantastic.


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